Friday, March 4, 2011
Happy Friday, Dear Readers!
I've almost survived my first week of hardcore training...only two more classes to go, and I'm actually looking forward to them. Tomorrow morning I have a meeting with personal trainer extraordinaire Helene Massicotte before my boxing class. I'll let you know how that goes.
Today's topic is a little more serious than usual, because I've been in a serious mood all week. What would you change about yourself if you could? It's great to be happy with who you are, but I know lots of us also strive for self-improvement. So be honest--if you could change anything, what would it be? Can you change it? If so, how, and are you already on your way?
I'm sure this won't come as a surprise to anyone who has read this blog this week, but I wish I had more confidence. I can blame my lack of confidence on a lot of things--I wasn't exactly raised in a "love thyself" kind of family, to put it mildly. A string of abusive boyfriends followed, and I've always taken any criticism to heart, whether or not it was warranted. But that was then, this is now. I don't want to spend my entire life limited by my childhood or anything traumatic that happened in my past.
There's quite a few things I don't like about myself, and they're mostly related to confidence. I can be too sensitive and highly defensive--both of these qualities would dissipate if I was a more confident person. Thankfully, the process I am currently going through in kickboxing--training for the green prajioud and to fight in the ring at last--will help me immensely in this quest. I know I am going to take some very hard knocks along the way (both physically and mentally). There will be times when I doubt myself and get depressed over my lack of ability. (I've already had a mini-meltdown, and it's only the first week!) But you can't fight without confidence--it seriously isn't possible.
As my kru told me yesterday, "the moment you start thinking negative, you've already lost".
Sure, the full-body makeover will be a nice bonus, but what I'm most looking forward to out of all this is the makeover of my mind.
How about you, Dear Readers? I suspect this won't be a popular post for comments, but I hope some of you are brave enough to share.
Posted by J.H. Moncrieff at 5:00 AM